Make A Wish

I'm feeling a little better than I was in the last post. I do have to say that I love my aunt and I think she's a big-hearted person. We are just so different in how we do things and I forget that she's not me and I'm not her. My grandma (despite what I feel) is not suffering and if she needs anything they are there to assist her. They wouldn't take care of her the way I would, but she'll be fine. I have to let it go. I can't keep stressing about something I have no control over.

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Several months ago a friend (from a support group) announced to me she was pregnant. While we were having lunch, I commented that I liked her necklace. Well little did I know that she had one for me! The necklace she was wearing was a wishing necklace. You're supposed to make a wish, then put it on. The charm that hangs from the linen/silk thread will fall off after several weeks of wear, then your wish is supposed to come true. She made a wish, then found out she was pregnant. It works right?

I hesitated to put it on right away. I felt like I needed to make my wish "good"- as opposed to a not good wish??? I treated it as if it were my last dying wish and I didn't want to waste it. I didn't want to be selfish or obvious in my wish, so I took time (several more weeks) to really think about it. It had to be perfect. On the day my grandmother was diagnosed with breast cancer, I pulled that wishing necklace out of it's shiny pouch and made a wish. I cried a good wet cry and said a prayer and put that necklace on. I don't like things around my neck when I sleep so I opted to put it on my wrist instead. After a couple months, the angel on the faded blue thread around my wrist fell off in the shower. I heard the subtle clink on the tub floor, but I didn't realize what it was. I stepped out of the shower and was drying off, I turned around and saw something tiny and silver next to the drain. It was my angel. And my wish did come true.

The topic of making wishes on inanimate things reminds me of my aunt (a different one than the one discussed in the last post). You know those "getting to know you" emails that everyone forwards to you where you're supposed to answer simple questions about yourself like your lucky number and what color your bedrooms walls are painted... Those annoying things you feel obligated to forward to everyone on your email list. Anyway, one of the questions on the list was "Do you wish upon stars?" My aunt said "no".

Wha??? I understand not buying a piece of jewelry to make a wish upon. But a star? Those are free! Why wouldn't you wish upon a star? I thought everyone did that. You know "Star light, Star bright, First star I see tonight, Wish I may, Wish I might, Have this wish I wish tonight" I am in disbelief. Or maybe she is.

Stars, a loose eyelash, a piece of jewelry, birthday candles, a penny in a fountain or a wishing well. What do you wish upon?