I Need Help.

I have narrowed my search down to 3 women and I need your help. All take my insurance and have been recommended by other doctors, nurses and friends of mine. They all work with high risk pregnancies which I will need once I get there. We will start trying again in January but for now I need to figure out why I haven't had a period in 3 months. I have no clue what kind of questions to ask these people. Should I call, email or visit them in person to ask the questions? What does one look for when making such a huge decision? I didn't really choose my other doctors, they just sort of fell into place. When I was pregnant with Sam, I made an appointment with a man who my family doctor recommended. He was great, but with Jack I switched to the doctor that was on call Sam when he died. I like her, but she is not qualified to treat me. I had to figure that out the hard way. Anyway, this is a huge thing for me because I want to get it right. Does anyone have any suggestions on what to look for or ask these future doctors. I'm stressing out about it and can't manage to figure it out on my own. If anyone wants the websites to these women's practices in order to make an educated decision, just email me and I'll send them over to you. Thanks!

While I'm asking for help, does anyone on blog spot know how to highlight and link to something in your post. Example: I'm looking for a doctor. Only the word "doctor" would be highlighted and underlined and when you click on it, it would take you to another website. I don't know what this called and I feel dumb for asking, but I have tried to figure it out and can't seem to get it. I know how to create a link on this blog to connect to other blogs and such, but I don't know how to incorporate it while I'm writing an entry. Thanks again!

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A Better Life.

Do you ever wish you could leave you life behind and start over? Or move far away and become someone else? Have different responsibilities, or better yet, no responsibilities? I just want a redo. I want a real life get out of jail card. "Jail" being my current state. I don't really have it that bad. I know there are starving children and homeless people all across the world and I'm not comparing my state of misery to theirs. I just wish that I could do things over- better.

Some people say that they don't have any regrets, because everything happens for a reason. I agree with this to a point. I do believe everything happens for a reason, but I still have regrets. I regret not being able to save my children that my body destroyed. I'm glad they are a part of my life, but part of me wishes that I had never gotten pregnant with them. I don't say this because I'm selfish but because I feel like they deserved better and I let them down. I know I would have been a great mother to them. I would have tried my best, anyway. But I feel that if they were born to someone else, they could have had a life. A better life.

I know I didn't ask for this to happen. No one does. I don't blame myself (entirely) for our children dying and neither does my husband. But if he were married to someone else, he too, could have had a better life. He didn't ask to be married to a nut case who couldn't reproduce. Why does he have to suffer? He of course would say that he is not suffering and that he loves me, but he didn't/doesn't deserve this. I know it's "for better or worse...", but why was he dealt the worst. This is the worst. Why is this our life?

I often wonder: "If this wasn't my life, where would I be? What would I do with all my time that I am currently spending grieving? Would I be happy being someone else? Doing something else? Living a different life?

I am grateful for my life and ALL that I have. I thank God everyday for my MANY blessings. I TRY not to take people and things for granted. I just wish sometimes that some things were different- better.

A Special Day

Happy Birthday to an angel in Heaven and her Momma here on Earth.

Sara Elizabeth
October 2, 2006- born at 10:22 p

Kristi
October 2
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Sara we miss you and wish you were here. Thank you for letting us share this special day with you.

Critter-licious

My dear friend of mine, Monica, gave birth to her baby boy yesterday afternoon and he is absolutely delicious. Mr. H and I visited them in the hospital last night and he slept the entire time. He and his parents are happy and healthy and resting as much as they can before they take him home. Yay! I don't want to give out the name or birth details, because that's her job as a proud Momma. Congratulations Monica we are so happy for you! I've never seen you this happy before. (This photo of the sun setting was taken on October 1, 2007- the day Critter entered the world)