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Tuesday, May 4, 2010

A Daughter for Mr. and Mrs. H?

I've been wondering lately (well actually for a couple years now) what our next child's gender will be. We've had a boy and girls name picked out since we first found out we were pregnant with Sam (4 years ago) and neither have been used.

I've wondered if we'll have a girl and if I'll be satisfied with that. I know that sounds shitty, but my heart desires and misses my boys. I want a boy because I feel like I need to live out my life parenting a son. I need to know what I've been missing out on.

A few weeks ago, I was eating a popsicle while taking care of LD. It was a fruity one with a joke on the stick. The icy treat was covering up part of the popsicle and as soon as I read it, I got anxious and had to call Mr. H.



I felt like it was a sign (from the popsicle gods???) of what was to come. Then I finished the lemony pop and read the rest of the joke.

And it made me laugh.



Will we have a girl? I don't know but if we do, we'll know what to call her and it won't be Patty. She will be loved, there's no doubt about that. But do I want a boy? Yes. Will I be happy and blessed with either? Absolutely.

17 comments:

Seraphim said...

ummm, am I missing something here? news to share? either way, you are an awesome mother xo

Monica H said...

no news. not yet. just thought the stick was interesting :-)

and thank you!

Kathi said...

I am the same. I want to parent a girl. I will be totally happy having either sex but I was ready and prepared for girls.

MissingYouAlways said...

oh wow how silly.
I have been reading everything and thinking, well praying it is all a sign.
=) bf and I are ttc again, and I keep hearing the song "somewhere over the rainbow"
from tv commercials, tv shows, and looking for mothers day cards for my mom.
and my fortune cookie the other day read
"if you want the rainbow, you have to put up with the rain"
or something along those lines

thinking of you and your little boys =)

Andrea said...

Monica,

I absolutely love it when I get "little signs" out of the clear blue sky!

I can certainly understand your hearts need to mother a little boy. Honestly, I feel the same way, but know that I can love a baby girl all the same. I'm going to leave this one up to the man upstairs :) So long as I have a healthy child in my arms that is all that it will take to make me smile.

Be good to yourself and I'm enjoying all your fab photos! I'm jealous of that camera you have :)

HUGS
Andrea

sapphireblue said...

There's days where I get pissed off and wonder why did this have to happen to me?

I have seen little signs here and there where I know she is sending them to me.

I do love the joke on the popsicle stick very cute.

Annie said...

Funny. I hope you have some very good news to share soon. Boy or girl - it doesn't matter. But alive would be good next time around, wouldn't it :) Praying for you and all the other mommies like us...

The Nanny said...

Love the 'sign'! And hey, Patty's a cool retro name :)

Rachel said...

Oh come on Patty is a great name.

I hope that is a sign of good things to come.

Marie W said...

Ha! When I saw the title my eyes popped! After losing AJ, I wanted another girl, but after having both, I am just grateful for whatever I might get. I wonder though if I get a girl, will I miss having a boy? or if I have a boy will I miss having a girl? I completely understand. Sending love and hugs.

Becky said...

Happy to see a post from you : )

Gotta love those pop-sickle stick Gods!

I had mixed feelings about having a girl. It was easier, in the sense that I really couldn't compare every little nuance. I knew without a doubt that it was a different pregnancy because the baby was a different sex. There was no mistaking anything. However, my heart longs for a boy. It longs for little boy hugs and little boy kisses and little boy mud. In my heart, my family won't be complete without a son and I'll always wonder what I missed out on.

You will love a daughter to pieces and in so many more ways than you could ever imagine. But it will always be different than your love for your sons and not just because they aren't here with you.

erinunbe said...

I love signs! When Allyson passed...I told her to show me signs that she was here.....I have seen several :)
I totally understand wanting one gender over another....I feel guilty about it sometimes...but I think it is just human nature.
I pray that you are blessed with a little "Patty" or "Patrick" :)xoxo

christyna said...

I love when signs pop up!!miss you!

jaded said...

I understand completly. I really wanted a girl after Emi and was so worried that I would not love this baby in the same way if she were not a girl...
Maybe that's why I convinced myself that I was expecting a boy...so that I could warm up to the idea? No matter what we will love our babies..and drive them crazy...
;)

Lori said...

I got super-excited reading this and thought "oh, I hope she's pregnant!". Alas, I was foiled.

You are a great mom now and will be to any gender baby that you will have in the future. However, I totally understand how you feel. I didn't want a girl either.

J said...

Wow, that is amazing! Love the pic of the popscicle.
I know you will be happy with either.
After having a son after the son that I lost, yes, I wanted a son, but it bothered me when people implied that it was a replacement for the one that I lost.

Kristi said...

Thinking of you and possible babies. You will be an amazing mother, no matter the gender.