I am now at the same gestation that I was when we lost Jack. This coming Thursday will mark the day when we lost Sam at 17w1d. It's a stressful week to say the least.
I went to the perinatologist on Wednesday for a follow-up appointment and they checked on the baby as well as my cervix. My cervix was measuring about 4 cm, and was closed. All that's good news but I still have doubts this thing will hold as it should. It's just a scary time for me. I go back in to my regular OB on Tuesday so I'll be able to see the baby again. In the last few days I've been feeling pressure and have a feeling of heaviness in my lower abdomen and on my cervix. This all could be completely normal but I can't help but think otherwise.
In other news, our guest bathroom has a leak in the tub. I noticed water pooling outside the tub when I showered and just thought that I wasn't closing the shower curtain correctly, but yesterday I let the water run for a few minutes before I got in and there was a puddle of water on the floor again, even though the water was facing away from the curtain. the leak was coming through the wall. Our linen closet backs up to the shower so we pulled out blankets, and towels only to find there was mold and mildew on the sheet rock and under the carpet. Then I thought that we (read: Mr. H) should check the carpet and walls in the adjoining room, which is the living room, to see if there was any damage. And there was. There was mold on the lower part of the wall behind the media cabinet. All the mold has been cleaned up and I'm not allowed to go near any of it. The carpets are dry and as I type, Mr. H is tearing down the walls on all three sides of the tub.
I've decided all of this is merely a distraction so that I'm not thinking about the baby and I can concentrate on something else. But I feel useless because I can't help and while Mr.H doesn't want me in there, I think he's a little bitter about having to do all the work himself. He is fully capable, he is a handyman after all, but his parents are on the way to assist.
I'll update when I know something else.