Anyone out there?

Does anyone actually read this blog anymore? I feel like I'm writing to humor myself.

If you're out there, please delurk and let me know. I'm feeling very needy at the moment. Or maybe not needy, but rather insecure... and maybe just a little needy.

Am I not cool enough? Interesting enough? Am I boring you with my non-pregnant talk? Please don't wait til I have good news of a pregnancy to show me your support. I need you now, in my stage of limbo.

See I told you I'm needy.

Ugh, I annoy myself.

For the two of you that do comment on a regular basis, thank you.

Unexpected Blessings

I read the most amazing news today. It made my week, heck, it made my month!

Shauna of Thoughts from My Life had been MIA for a while. She hadn't blogged since November, but I continued to check in on her. Time slipped past me and while I was not clicking over to her blog, she brought home a baby!

Please stop by her blog, read about her unexpected adoption and welcome her new son, Andrew Jack. I just love his name :-)

Congratulations Shauna- I am thrilled for you!

Random Thoughts

My cousin graduated this weekend. Congrats T! It brought me back to the time when I graduated and now I feel so old.

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My birthday is in 3 weeks! Woo hoo!

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I bought an OvuLite from Amazon and it's on it's way. I'm excited to use it. I read a review on the OvuLite and someone mentioned that they put their husband's semen on the slide and looked at it through the microscope. I thought it was gross, but now I wanna do it too! ha!

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Also I started checking my CM and charting a few days ago. It's not as much of a hassle as I thought it would be, though I'm not quite sure I'm doing it correctly. I understand the basic idea of how to check it, I'm just not sure I'm getting the CM near my cervix as they suggest to do. My fingers don't reach that far up. And I'm not sure what time of day to check it. Any suggestions?

I found a chart on BabyHopes.com that is proving helpful as well.

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Luci's funeral was last Wednesday, which was 2 weeks after her birth. Mr. H and I went to the cemetery after I got off work to visit her gravesite. She was not buried in the same cemetery as Sam and Jack. Her parents chose a more quaint cemetery in a nearby town and it was really beautiful. Every headstone was different, there were several wind chimes in a hovering tree and it backed up to a wooded area. It was really peaceful.

I wanted to attend the funeral, but Luci's mom stated that she only wanted her family and A. there. So I worked while A. went. I sent along a bouquet of berry colored roses and a card for the family. I wish there was more I could have done. Some of you have asked if I was going to speak with her and be there for her, but there's a language barrier. They are from P.eru and her English is about as good as my Spanish--lacking. I can get by, but I can't carry on a conversation by any means. Though I manage to communicate with a 2 1/2 year old quite well.

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While web surfing info on CM, I decided to google 'pictures of a cervix' and I landed on an awesome website, called Beautiful Cervix Project. I obviously don't have a beautiful cervix because mine is effed up, but I have to admit, I was very intrigued.

View at your own discretion. If you're not afraid of the female anatomy, then click HERE to see detailed pictures of a cervix throughout a 30 day cycle. It is fascinating and I want to buy a speculum and have Mr. H take pics of me. I think he'd do it...I should ask him first, hold on for a second...He's laughing at me, but he said YES!

Seriously, go look at the pictures, you might learn something. I know I did. I really do think it would be awesome to have pictures of my cervix (or someone else's) throughout a pregnancy. Since my cervix practically thinned away and became non-existent, I think it would be neat to see the progress, especially in the second trimester, when things seem to go wrong. Any volunteers?

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That's all for now. Have a good day!

Lonesome Dove

I have a hanging basket on my back porch that has been there for a very long while. Possibly 2 years or longer, now that I'm thinking about it...sheesh! It use to be a home for a pitiful hibiscus plant given to me when I was in the hospital a while back. Anyway, needless to say, the plant didn't survive. You can see it's remnants in the center of the basket. Don't judge me.

I call it my island :-)

I was going to take it down (what's my rush?) but didn't because I didn't know where to put it. The very next day, this little guy...er, girl, was sitting in it. I went out to take pictures, but it was kind of dark and the wind kept blowing the basket around. I changed the settings on the camera and managed to shoot this. It's a little blurry and looks somewhat like a painting, but I like it!


A few weeks later....a dove-let!

I think this is one of 3. They were all perched up on the island and I went to the door and turned on my camera and they all took off. This little fella flew down and sat on the porch. I walked outside, shut the door behind me, walked towards him, sat next to him and it didn't move! Amazing. I thought maybe there was something wrong with it's wing, but he was fine. Just friendly.

I did not use the zoom to take this picture. I sat next to him, then walked in front of him to get a better angle. I was about a foot away from him and was able to take 3 pics before he flew off.

So fuzzy.

More Blogging Material :-)

Well as you can see, I am completely "normal"! Only this time they sent the results in two different letters instead of the usual pink cards.

Mr. H checked the mail and said, "well honey at least you have more blogging material!" I'm at least thankful there isn't anything wrong down there or with my thyroid.

They tried to tell me my cycles are off because I'm stressed. WHAT DO YOU MEAN I'M STRESSED? COULD IT BE?

Did you know stressed spelled backwards spells desserts? Off to the kitchen I go, you know, because I'm stressed!