Saturday, November 8, 2008

Panic Inducing

A. (LD's mom) is due Monday! (That's 2 days from now)!!!

How the hell did time pass me by? I'm freakin' the f*ck out!

She has me on call this weekend in case she goes into labor. Her mom wants to be with her in the delivery room so they asked me if I'd watch LD while they were at the hospital delivering their healthy precious baby boy.

I'm sure they will shed tears after their baby is born just like I did. Only theirs will be tears of joy, while mine were of sorrow for my sons that would never come home.


Travelwahine said...

I know, it sucks. I feel the same way. Another one of my coworkers is pregnant, and of course, I think sure she'll have a beautiful healthy baby and me, well, I can't seem to conceive or to keep my baby alive once I do conceive.

It's not that I don't want their babies to be healthy, it's just the "why not me?"

Sorry, I'm being really negative. BUt, it freaking sucks.

Hugs to you. I know how hard this can be.

Kristi said...

I'm sorry. This has to be hard on you.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry..come on byeI have the chair waiting....

Rachel said...

That stinks. Hang in there!

mrsmuelly said...

The thought just makes me cry. I know I should say something nice, but this just sucks! Plain and simple.

Anonymous said...

i wish i could be like the innocents in their bubbles...after losing two babies there is no going back to that bubble.
this will be a rough time for you.