"IT'S NOT THE LENGTH OF THE GESTATION, IT'S THE EXTENT OF THE ATTACHMENT."


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

A Bust

So I actually thought I got pregnant this cycle because I'm 2 weeks late, as of today. It took me a lot to finally break down and pee on the stick, because I was afraid but I tested yesterday and it was negative. So disappointing, but I'm okay.

This time was different though. I actually had pregnancy symptoms. I hope I wasn't making them up in my mind :-) My breasts were sore (they're still sore), I was tired, I was late. I don't know, I just felt like this was it, and it's not. Of course there is a chance of the test I took being wrong, but I doubt it.

I think mostly, I'm frustrated with my cycles being so "off". Two cycles ago AF was 3 weeks late, last month it was a week early. This cycle I'm late again. I called my OB this morning and made an appointment tomorrow morning with her nurse practitioner for an annual exam. From there, I'll schedule another appt. with my OB to discuss TTC, ovulating, my wacky cycles, etc.

Fun stuff, no?

11 comments:

Coggy said...

(((hugs)))

Monica I'm sorry it so isn't funny when these things happen. It's like a watched pot or something. As soon as we try to do something and focus on it, then it all seems to go screwy. I hope your OB appointment goes well and it turns out to be nothing more than random cycles.
Why isn't all this easier?
xxoo

Seraphim said...

You know how cranky I am about this for you. Fun stuff? NO! xxx

my3sons said...

Monica,
I'm sorry your going through all of this. I'm praying that the Dr. can give you some insight on what is going on and what you can do. Good luck today! Katie

Lea said...

Hi Monica - thinking of you today. I'm sure the doctor will have some advice/suggestions for you.

Fingers crossed!

The Nanny said...

I'm sorry :(

Rachel said...

I'm sorry everything is messed up. I hope the OB can give you some answers.

Marie W said...

Sorry to hear that Monica. Praying for you. It is hard to think that something that should be so easy is so hard. Back in the day all you had to do was hold hands and BOOM - you fall pregnant (LOL). You are in my thoughts sweetie.

mrsmuelly said...

Not fun stuff! I'm sorry Monica. I'm glad you made an appointment, though...even though it isn't fun. Maybe they can give you a "jump start" or something?

Becky said...

I had a dream about you and Mr. H last night. We were in your kitchen. Weird. I've never been in your kitchen much less your house! But then you asked me to follow you, and I did.

You had a nursery all set up. The walls were green and yellow. The crib was made, you were folding clothes, and even the pictures were hung.

You were waiting for a little boy named Nicholas. You kept talking about him and we were oooh'ing and ahhh'ing over all the little boy clothes.

I woke up this morning feeling like it was more of a premonition than just a dream.

I'm anxious to hear what the OB has to say. I hope that the appointment goes well, too.

(((hugs)))

Kristi said...

Monica, I'm sorry to hear that. I hope the dr. has some answer for you.

You're in my thoughts.

jaded said...

oh yes ooodddles of fun! ha! i have thought i have been pregnant twice since Daniella passed away. and i have not been. i am pretty regular and i had been upto 3 days late with symptoms and then nothing. granted, i wasn't ttc, but still i hoped...
i'm glad you are going to have this discussion with a doctor.