"IT'S NOT THE LENGTH OF THE GESTATION, IT'S THE EXTENT OF THE ATTACHMENT."


Monday, March 31, 2008

Public Service Announcement

I'm going to be with my Grandma for her surgery tomorrow. She is having a mastectomy and reconstruction on her right breast. She visited us over Easter and she said, "This is the last time my boob will ever be here in this town", then she got sad. I did that too. I remember every little thing or place I could link the boys to, I did. "I remember driving here, when I was pregnant. The last time I ate such and such I was pregnant. When we did this, I was pregnant." and the list went on. It's been a year and a half since Sam passed away, and I still find myself doing that from time to time. So, I understand her grief. It's just sad to me that she is experiencing this type of grief before she has even experienced the actual physical loss. But I get it. Like us, she's already lost her innocence. I guess it would be like us knowing we were going to lose our babies, but we just had to wait it out. She has said to me many times over the past few weeks that it has been so stressful and exhausting for her. In many ways, it's only beginning, but in some it's over. I hope to never write about cancer again. If the two topics are ever mentioned in unison, I hope it's to say that "My Grandma beat cancer!"

11 comments:

Rachel said...

I hope they can rid her body of the cancer!

The Nanny said...

I hope the cancer is gone, baby gone!

Antigone said...

I'm glad they caught it. I hope you're holding up okay with the added stress.

Kristi said...

Take care of yourself & your grandmother this week. Hugs to you both!

Monica said...

I'll be thinking of both of you.

Your grandma let you take a pic of her in her bra? That's effin awesome!!!!

wannabe mom said...

thinking of your gramma and your family. ((big hugs))

meg said...

Take care, Monica. I hope it all went well. I'm so glad you could be with her. And that photo does rock.

Lori said...

Praying that everything is well with your gma. Who knows.....Playboy may be calling her for a centerfold! LOL!! Great picture.

Becky said...

I hope everything goes well. Keep us posted!

Lots of love to you both!

Sarah said...

I hope she's doing ok -- you too. Nice that you can be there to help her through this.

Coggy said...

monica I hope your grandmother is doing ok and that the surgery went well. K x x x