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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Holiday Recap

I haven't had a lot to say, so I've been quiet lately. Besides that this week has been quite eventful and busy. Family was in town, 30 dozen tamales and pumpkin empanadas were being made, there has been lots of shopping and wrapping and my aunt got engaged on Christmas Eve. Congrats M and J! And I'm exhausted.

Our Christmas was good. It flew by so incredibly quick though. I don't know where the time went? Honestly. We hosted Christmas Eve dinner at our house for 10 including my in-laws. It was nice and simple. Then we spent the day at my mom's house with the entire family. Mr. H and I will ring in the New Year together, quietly at home.

Last year and the year before, we bought sterling silver ornaments for Sam and Jack with their names and birth dates on them. I do have to say that I am grateful that this year we didn't have to buy another remembrance ornament for a baby that died. I can't handle the heart ache.

Speaking of heart ache, I feel like such a bad mother. My friend, Monica, went to visit the boys and brought them ornaments and took battery operated candles out to them Christmas Eve. She even took red and white tulips for them. Someone else scattered Christmas confetti over their headstones. I did nothing. I didn't get them anything. I didn't even make time to go see them on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. What's the matter with me? I'm such a bad mother. There was so much going on, and so much family togetherness and I completely left them out. Sam and Jack, I'm so sorry. I love you so very much. Please forgive me.

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Wishing you all a better year- Happy New Year!

10 comments:

tyfamilyadventures said...

I love the pictures of you guys..glad you had a good christmas..the boys know how much their mommy loves them you are a great mommy.sometimes we get busy.believe me i feel like i am not getting a mommy of the year award..hope 2009 is great...

missing_one said...

I've come to realize we don't have to get them anything, because they are constantly in our hearts and minds. We are with them all the time.

*hugs* glad you had a nice holiday!

Virginia said...

Honey, they're in your heart...and maybe that's enough.

Kristi said...

Monica, don't beat yourself up over not going to the cemetary. Sam & Jack are in your heart, you honor and remember them everyday whereever you are.

Wishing you many blessing in 2009.

jaded said...

you know what i think...that sometimes our babies might be glad when we 'forget' them however briefly, because we might just be busy in a good way. M, if i know all the way from here that you are a fab mom i sure as hell know that those precious boys that you carry in your heart know as well.
i wish you the best possible 2009 you can have and hope that it sets you up for a baby in the near future...2010?
I know next year is the set-up year for us, as we are working on debt on our end!

jaded said...

oh, i LOVE your new photos with Mr. H. - very cool.

Rachel said...

Monica,

The fact that you didn't go to the cemetary does not make you a bad mom. Your boys are in your heart and you remember them everyday.

I hope that 2009 is a much happier year for you.

Oh, and I want some pumpkin empenadas, I don't even know what those are but it sounds yummy.

Cindi said...

First of all, you did NOT forget them; they are with you always.

Secondly, the picture of you and Mr. H is adorable!! I love it!

Happy New Year!

The Nanny said...

Here's hoping to only wonderful things in 2009 :-)

mrsmuelly said...

You are not a bad mother! Sam and Jack know they are in your thoughts and in your heart always. It doesn't matter that you didn't go "see" them on Christmas - you remember them every day!

And, that's a really cute pic :-)